I am having a break from trying to make sense of everything. Having difficulties putting it in to words. The person who is responsible for the abuse is dying of cancer. You dont know how long that has taken to write - I've rewritten that last sentence so many times. I feel guilty. I am going away to Wales for half term with my daughter and husband. Its a difficult time.
Sharon
Dear dear Sharon We are only
Dear dear Sharon
We are only strangers in that we have never met face to face but on another level we all know one another so my heart goes out to you.I know this guilt. My grand-father who abused me and whom I loved,died when I was 10 days short of 11.Because I wished the bad Grand-dad dead, when he died I had killed off the good one as well.And in the way we are all familiar with, sometimes I know his dying had nothing to do with me whereas other days, the guilt and fear are back.
So I think I understand maybe some of what you're feeling.
I sincerely hope you have a restful week away with some respite from trying to sort it all out. Do keep in touch when you come home
Lots of love, Barbara xx